New Beginnings.

When a new year comes along, so does a chance to start your life over, in a way. I've never really seized it before, and I feel a little guilty for it. So when 2012 comes, I'm going to go above and beyond. I'm going to be fantastic. I'm going to be beautiful. I'm going to be someone people can't help but love. It sounds really shallow, but I want to be that girl that every girl wants to be. Unfortunately, Stardoll is holding me back from doing just that.

I can't make good grades when I find it so hard to just get off of the computer and study. I can't have a decent social life when the entire time I'm with my friends, I can't help but wonder when I'll be able to go home and go onto the computer. I won't be able to concentrate on my work when I can't stop thinking about what to say to my friends in TC or how to style my medoll next. Stardoll has been controlling my life for three years now, and I'm ready to put a stop to it.

I've been fantasizing about leaving for awhile now, but I only started thinking about it seriously fairly recently. I've been going over the pros, why I should leave, what I would gain, and the cons, what I would miss, and my strategy for leaving for awhile now. Because I do need a strategy. This is a war for me. I'll really regret it in the beginning. I'll be torturing myself, denying myself of something that I'll be convinced I need to survive.

Yes, sometimes I really do feel that I need Stardoll to survive. That it's just as important as air, food, or water, and without it I'd die. I remember one time my parents cut off my Internet for the day. After a few hours, I was curled up in my bed in fetal position telling myself I need it. I do not need it. I'll regret leaving at first, I'll say it was one of the worst mistakes of my life and I'll want to come back.

But in the long run, I won't regret it. Why would I want to cling to some website that's honestly designed for eight-year-olds when I could have so much more. I could have friends. I could have a job, I want to start modeling, and it would be harder if I'm preoccupied with the desire to come online. I could be a better person. I could make good grades. Why would I trade my life for Stardoll?

I am aware that this is a short notice, but first thing I'll do when I wake up on January 1st is get on Stardoll and delete my account. I'll ask my Dad to use the Parental Controls to block the website, so I won't be tempted to go on. Then I'll shake the virtual dust of this place off of my feet, wash my hands clean of this place and start my new life.

I'll miss everyone I know or knew on Stardoll. I hope you understand why I have to do this.